My penis in a girl’s vagina.

Disgusting!

Disgusting!

That’s disgusting — so I thought, when I heard what they were saying — I’m never gonna put my penis in a girl’s vagina. Never!

Walls had large stains of mold.

Junior high school came as a shock. In Italy, you go to primary school from age 6 to 11. Then, the year you turn 11 it is time to move to a new school: “Scuole Medie“. All the sudden, teachers want to be addressed as “professors” — and they call you back by surname. You loose your identity, your name, who you are. Now, you are just an anonymous family name: not just for the professors — your class mates address you like that, too.

I attended primary school in a privileged social island. We were living in a rich neighborhood, all my class mates came from well educated, wealthy families. I was the poor guy in the class, admitted in the circle of trust just because my mother was a teacher in that elite school. The parents of other kids were doctors, architects, business owners. They lived in villas and castles. Seriously. One guy, he actually lived in a castle: he and his brother had a playing room big as my family’s rental apartment. And they had a full-time nanny. The cutest girl of the class lived in a four floors villa designed by the most famous architect in the city: her father.

My family was renting a 50 square meters ground-floor apartment from a fat old lady living with her often-intoxicated husband and their teenage daughter, who years later served a long sentence in prison. It was a tiny, cute apartment, with two rooms and a kitchen too small to fit in two people. We did not have heating, but something like a gas stove in the corridor. Humidity was a bit of a problem, walls had large stains of mold: I remember the day we moved the wardrobe, and we found mushrooms growing on the floor.

Still, the neighborhood was fine, and the people pleasant. So were my class mates.

I do not want to suggest that this was the junior high school I attended.

I do not want to suggest that this was the junior high school I attended.

The Spanish flu pandemic.

However, when I had to start junior high school, my family decided to move to the other side of the city. A popular area, tall buildings, working-class families. The school I moved in was located between the harbor and the steel factory. The school building used to be a hospital, during and soon after World War I, and many people died there of the 1918 Spanish flu pandemic.

So, there I was, alone in this new world. The kids in my class were divided in two groups: the few innocent, scared, well mannered, delusional 11-year old children like me, and a bunch of criminal, violent, swearing, vulgar older chaps ready to crash you. Some of the latter were 12, 13, even 15 year old. All in the same class, some having repeated the year 2, 3 or 4 times. There was also this woman, a 16 year old girl with boobs: something I never ever saw before. She was smoking and spitting on the floor.

And then there were the young innocent kids.

And then there were the young innocent kids.

I felt vomiting.

The teachers — I mean, the “professors”, did not make any difference between the poor young kids like me, and those others. They, the professors, actually seemed to enjoy to humiliate the newly arrived. For the first time in my life I saw teachers purposely reducing to tears some pupils. The English teacher was particularly evil: I never learned anything, in the two years I attended that school hell, if not fear and humiliation. You will never be able to speak any English, she used to repeat me.

The older kids, the 14- and 15-year old did not give a damn shit about school. They were talking just in dialect — which I never spoke neither at home, nor at school — and they were saying things I could not understand. They did not pick to much on me: some other poor kid got quite abused by them, though. Those kids were talking a lot about genitals, body liquids, pubic hair: nothing I had a clue about. So, when they asked me if I ever had my penis in a girl’s vagina, I felt vomiting.

That was just disgusting. Come on, how perverted could be someone to have such an idea. Girls pee from their vaginas. Oh, Jesus! I knew how babies were conceived, of course: father was laying his penis on mother’s belly button — the most natural opening for filling in mother’s belly. This was just natural. But a penis in a vagina, hell no!

It had something to do with eggs.

It had something to do with eggs.

 

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